Its amazing how so many things had changed within this 1 year. University, family, friendships and relationship.. It was all a mess. This year had been an emotional roller coaster for me but I am glad that how everything turned out. :)
I remember I used to be really depressed and tired all the time. For some weird reason, even though all those incidents crashed down onto me all at the same time, I stayed optimistic (to me anyways). I am really glad all these things happened to me because it made me much stronger. I know that I can make it though no matter what. No matter how tough and hard things can get, I WILL survive. YES I WILL.
This year also made me realise how incredibly lucky I am. Firstly, I am healthy. I haven't gotten sick for a while now (touch wood). I realised how important my health is. Because of that I started to exercise a little more and honestly, it makes me so much happier than I used to be.
Secondly I realised how much my family loves me and how much they mean to me. Whatever happened in the past should just stay in the past. I am never going to look back ever again because it will only hinder me from appreciating what I have now.
Thirdly, I have incredible friends. For so many months I had been hiding so many secrets in my heart because I was scared to speak up. I was so scared that if I speak up, others would judge me. I was so wrong. Now I know that some of my friends will always got my back no matter what and will always support my decisions. :)
Please don't feel sorry for me. It is hard getting over some things. But honestly I am really happy. I am at the point of my life where I feel so free and lucky. Yes there are many stress and at times I feel overwhelmed by them. But I know that I have the strength to get through them. I shall remain optimistic and overcome any obstacles that come along my way.
You can do it Jay.
Never give up.
