Lunar Eclipse 2011

The red moon is so beautiful tonight. I am glad that I witnessed it.:)

那些年，我们一起追的女孩

Holidays!

Hi world! I finally convinced myself to stop being lazy so here i am! I am in an incredible mood right now cause I feel so free! This is definitely a well deserved break.:)

A couple of days ago, I had my 21st birthday party. I must say that I had a fabulous time with all my wonderful friends present on that day. Thanks E, B, N, S, C, X, KM, K, SA, B, Sh, V for coming! The first thing we did that day was to catamaran. It was real fun.:) We hired 5 catamarans and the 12 of us broke up into groups of 2 and 3s. I was with E and S. I guess the group who had the most fun was Sh, X and KM's group. The first few mins after entering the water, they broke the bar that helps to change the direction of where the catamaran goes(I've no idea what it is called). And then out of the sudden, Sh slipped into the water. The water sport concluded by them managing to capsize their catamaran. Honestly it was really funny to watch them.^_^ I am glad you guys had fun despite those little incidents.:) Sadly S had to leave after because she was sick. Thanks for coming despite being sick!<3<3<3

Initially I planned to have a bbq right after surfcatting. But unfortunately it started showering so we had to change the plan and all of us traveled to E's house to have the "bbq". I can't thank E's parents enough for being so understanding and helpful. C joined us for dinner. We had plenty of food prepared by everyone that day and they were all simply delicious!

Here are the presents I received.:)

Panpan, toady and a PINK camera from E.:) The poor boy is broke now.:(

Calendar, necklace, owl earphones, and a touching birthday card by S and C.:)

BLUE contacts from B and N!!:O

Very cute necklace from Vvvvvvvv.:)

Vera wang body lotion from Sh.:) (smells so nice)

Veryy pretty Guess necklace from K, KM, B, X, SA.:)

Seriously I am being soooo spoilt.>.< I love all of the gifts. Thank you so much! You guys really shouldn't have.>.<

So I would like to thank everyone again for making an effort to come to my birthday party. It means so much to me and I feel so loved. Thanks for being such wonderful friends. You guys are so supportive, loving and amazing and i can't ask for anything more. I don't think I could survive dentistry without you people. I know I may not a very good friend sometimes but I really wanna try to be one. I feel so touched that day. Really! Thanks for being such awesome friends!:D

I can't forget to thank my family as well.:) Although my mum wasn't present that day but she was the one who prepared the noodles, the chicken wings, and helped me to organise everything I needed that day. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful mum.

E. Thanks for being the most understanding, supportive, helpful, selfless bf in the world. I am not the best girl. I am not good at expressing my feelings. I am sometimes a little mean and a little hot tempered. But you still treat me like a princess. I am the luckiest girl in the world.

It is so unlike me to put these kinda things down on a blog but right now I just want to tell everyone that I feel so blessed, so lucky to have the best people by my side. Thank you.

Love will find a way

The One That Got Away

I think Katy Perry look really pretty in this video.:)

Ps. So much to do. Kill me now.:(

Journey to the past

Oh god how i miss high school.:'(

Love

The Little Prince

"One day," you said to me, "I saw the sunset forty-four times!"
And a little later you added:

"You know-- one loves the sunset, when one is so sad..."

"Were you so sad, then?" I asked, "on the day of the forty-four sunsets?"

But the little prince made no reply.

Just do it

"The only real way to stop being afraid is to just do it - to stop being afraid you have to not be afraid."

Sounds silly but wise. Sounds easy but so hard. For months I had been fighting this fear battle within myself. I had been trying to run away so many times. I am a coward. But this time there is no escape. This time I will face it with confidence. One of my greatest weakness is the lack of confidence and overly concern about what others think of me. This time I will cast away all my fears and just do it. I'll have to face it eventually and it is only good for me. 

Believe in yourself Jayjay. 

So close, yet so far

这条路已经走了这么远，不要放弃哦！我要做一个尊敬别人和一个有用的人。一个能让婆婆爷爷骄傲的人。我会变得更坚强的。


我相信。。

Nostalgia

Smile

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile.
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Coco

Came across this picture today. Is it true? Well it certainly makes me feel a lot stronger. =3

Let me first talk about a stupid thing I did a few days ago. I dropped my laptop on the floor.=[ My internal harddrive is destroyed and so I ended up laptopless for the past couple of days. Never realised how bored I am without my laptop. Couldn't study and couldn't download movies. TV was my only entertainment. Thank goodness my dad, with his magic hands, managed to do a backup on all my files while my harddrive slowly drop into unconsciousness and say goodbye. Thanks dad for not getting mad at me.:)

So I haven't been doing any work these days and you can describe me with one word at the moment, "screwed".:(

Anyways, this post is entitled "Coco" so I am going to tell you what happened to him today. So mum, sis and I decided to bring coco into the garden for him to run around. He was so adorable.:) Instead of running away, he just stayed at one spot munching grass and occasionally change his spot to nom on new grass.:) Suddenly, he froze and ran to hide at a corner. I was like, "Whats wrong Coco? Don't be scared, I am here to protect you". I looked up and saw a hawk circling low in the sky. It obviously had its eyes on coco. I panicked and quickly carried my petrified coco into his box and ran for it. Poor coco almost got eaten. :( You had been a brave boy today coco! We love you so much.<3

*Ps: My sis is watching me as I blog this. Better not reveal any of my secrets!;)*

Weak

I remember around 10 years ago my cousin asked me "What do you want to be when you grow up?". I replied "I don't know. What do you want to be?" He said, "I want to be somebody to be remembered. I want to accomplish something that my name will be passed down for centuries and never to be forgotten.".

I remembered looking up at him in admiration, thinking, "Wow. That could never be me."

How I wish that I could say that its different now. Even now everything is still the same. I am still that weak little girl. No one will ever remember me. I am still the girl who gets picked last. I am still the girl who everyone leaves behind unless I scream out to them. Why?

For the first time in my life I heard someone called me "weak". It came to me as a surprise at first. I had many words to describe myself as.. But never weak. What really hit me hard was that, its true.

I'd always thought that crying in public is the definition of being weak. I am not talking about crying in movies  but in real life situations. I'd seen people that burst into tears about the littlest things in life. So I thought that I was strong. I didn't cry back then when I was bullied in secondary school. I didn't cry when I was called horrible names back then. I refused to break down in front of the people who were deliberately giving me a hard time. I didn't cry during graduations. Even my bestfriend has never seen my cry before. The only time I did cry in school was in Yr 1 when a fellow classmate slapped me due to bringing our group down for spelling wrong twice. Once everyone saw me crying, they told me to quit it because the teacher was approaching. So i stopped.

I thought I was strong. So what happened to me this year? Why did I break down in front of people and embarrassed myself? Is it because dentistry is killing me or because I am getting weaker? I would have thought that the stress in dentistry would make me a stronger person. However, I've never felt so weak and vulnerable in my life. I'd never thought that being nice is the very reason people make use of and bully you. I want to be a gentle, sincere and loving dentist who cares about her patients with all her heart. But apparently that is not enough. I hate how reality is. I hate how ugly people can get. I hate the real world which is a two face bitch.

Sorry for the emo post. I need time to figure myself out. Its time for me to quit being the soft, timid and nice person to be tougher and more confident. Stop running away Jayjay. Face your battles.

Family

I know it has been ages since I updated so Im back to wipe the cobwebs off the walls.

First of all I wanna welcome COCO into my family. He is a little brown guinea pig with a white Mohawk who is staying in my house for a couple of weeks and all i can say is that I love him to itsy bits.XD Everyone(except my dad) had been spoiling him.:D I would post some of his photos up here but I can't be bothered right now so..

Signing off~~

Lateral Expansion Much?

I am getting fatter. I ate too much midnight snacks.:( Soon I'll be looking like this:

JAYJAY STAY AWAY FROM FOOD! GET YOUR BUTT OFF THE BED AND DO SOME EXERCISE!

Ok..T.T

Nawwww~~:)

If Im not here tomorrow, you know that Endo killed me.

Gonna die from intimidation.:'(

Fear

So much to do yet ended up doing nothing at all.

Fear is the only word that can explain my mood right now. Life is going to get hectic soon and I am not sure whether I am ready for it. Gahh should calm my nerves and be more confident!

Like this:

Actually I always prefer pandas more so.. Like this:

You can do it Jayjay!:D:D:D

If you are going to fall in love with me

Due to my friends complaining, I had to change my blog theme. It was so pretty before. *sniff* :'(

Pandas!:D

I love Pandas.xD

I was supposed to meet up with J and W today for a study session but we ended up cancelling the plan. So like all my other Sundays, my study plans became a movie watching day. I was looking forward in meeting them as well.:( Haven't seen them since the last high school gathering.:(

Oh how i miss high school.:(

 On a happier note, E is coming back on thursday.:)

Good night people.:)

Edit*
Oh yeh! This made me laugh so hard.:) Enjoy~ Especially for the dental students.:)

Dreams:)

My dream room.:)

My 21st birthday is drawing nearer and I still haven't decided how I am going to celebrate it. I am choosing between surfcatting and dinner at a fancy restaurant. Nothing too fancy as I am a little short financially. Im sure it'll be a great day besides the fact that I am becoming old.:(

That was me surfcatting at the beginning of the year.:)

Recently I had been thinking about places I want to go after I get rich.xD One particular place is called Tahiti. I  had been dreaming of going there since I was 10. It is soo beautiful. The clear blue ocean and the clean white sand. I love the ocean.:)

Till then, I can only dream about it.:)

Friday

Its finally Friday!

Today I missed my first lecture due to me waking at up 930am. Obviously I got told off by my friends.>.< My excuse was that, who wants to wake up at 630 in a cold rainy morning!=[ And I was super tired. Anyways, it started out being a bad day as i got caught up in a horrible traffic jam, couldn't get parking, and therefore had to walk a distance. When I finally got to uni, i realised that i left my glasses in the car and had to walk all the way back again to get them.:( Oh well at least i got my elephant thighs doing some exercise.:)

Clinic was fun today. Did quite a bit of debriding getting the yucky stuff out of the patient's mouth. This particular patient haven't been to a dentist for 30yrs before seeing me due to her bad childhood experience at the dentist. After seeing me she told me that going to the dentist isn't bad at all and is in fact quite enjoyable. So I must have done something right!^_^ The best thing is that she agreed to me doing some fillings on her! I FINALLY GOT A RESTORATIVE PATIENT! YAYYYYY!!:D:D:D

Oh lol and somehow we created a dentistry family tree.:) S is my niece, K is my sister which is S's mother, X is my brother, C is my mother(or OUR mother), B is my grandma, N my grandpa(yeye), J M is my great grandma. And yes we are very mature. XD

New Start:)

Hi peeps.:)

Due to peer pressure i decided to make this "new" blog about my life. Nothing interesting happened today except that Bec stabbed my finger with a knife and it really hurt.:( Just joking.:) But anyways yesterday me, bec, steph, crystal, jen, nathan went to a jap restaurant near broadway and it was yummilicious.:D Loveee the sashimi. Sometimes I wish that I am a shark so that i can eat raw fish anytime i want.:D Nommmm salmonnnn.. Ok enough about my boring life today. Need to do my online assessments.:'( 

Toodles.:)